Tuesday, June 12, 2012

Anyway

I had a post in draft about the horrible things that happened here last week. The things that pushed me to my breaking point.  The things that have left me (at the very least temporarily) estranged from my mother.

It's not worth it to put it here though.  It doesn't need to be hashed and rehashed.  I'm so thankful for the people who talked me through it last week and helped me to be strong, my husband, my brother and my godmother as well several of you who were pissed right along with me. 

I was (am) disappointed and hurt by my mother's decisions, but I am grateful to be on the other side of it now, having said everything I've wanted to say for 20 years, and knowing that I am supported, cared for and loved by so many people.

I hate that it took what it did to get here, but for the first time in a long time, I feel ok.  I feel at peace.  The weight of everything that was unsaid for so long is gone. 

And I think I am fine.

10 comments:

Nowheymama said...

I'm so sorry to hear this! I'm glad to hear you're feeling better about things now, though.

Mrs. Irritation said...

Hugs to you! You know I'm here if you need anything.

k said...

I happen to think that you are the bees knees, and I'm so very sorry for what you've been put through.

Misty said...

I think I am the only trashy person who is curious to know what the hell happened.

I'm glad you're ok. Of course you are loved. How could you not be?

Shalini said...

Misty's comment is cracking me up on a serious post. But I'm glad you're on the other side of this.

d e v a n said...

((hug))

bethany said...

Not sure what happened, but I'm glad that you were able to say things that you felt needed to be said. I hope you are ok. Love!

Laura Diniwilk said...

Thinking of you...and laughing at Misty :)

I know you will get past the drama and do whatever is best for your family, because you are an amazing mother and an all around good chick. I hope it passes soon.

CAQuincy said...

Crud. Guess I need to get on Twitter more often? Glad to see you've "moved on" whatever the issue was. And...I don't know the specifics, but let me just say, that things have been much better with my own mother since I've learned to "accept what I can't change" and just...move on. Hugs....

emily said...

i'm not sure what happened either, but I love you! :) I'm sure you were right, whatever it was....