Wednesday, January 27, 2010

Resolve

So, I told you guys I would write about my resolutions sometime near February, right? And well basically I was foaming at the mouth to write my very first post with my new laptop. So, we both win right? Because I am sure you were waiting with baited breath.

Anyhoo..

My resolution for 2010 is actually pretty simple: to take care of me. I've been in the business of having and rearing children for 6 years now, and save for a brief stint at the gym when Lucy was about 18-months-old, I've basically let myself go to hell, mind, body and soul.

I am not looking at it from the perspective of 'I must lose weight', even though I am ridiculously unhappy with the way that I look. Every time I get on a losing weight sort of kick though, it just blows up in my face in a crash and burn sort of way. So instead, I'm focusing on the health aspect. Hub and I joined a gym (new to our area ans as of yet not opened) and I've made a few doctor's appointments--dermatologist and obgyn. I'm trying not to stuff my piehole with junk 24/7. It is a slow process and I don't have any visions of wearing a bikini come summer. But I do have a vision of playing in the yard with my kids and not feeling like my heart is going to pound right through my chest.

It's hard to care about your appearance when you don't feel good about yourself, but I am trying there as well. Actually doing something with my hair; possibly some makeup. Get my eyebrows done, maybe a pedicure or two and a massage here and there. Nothing extravagant, but I want to show myself that I care, and that it's ok to care about me once in a while.

Finally, I've been watching a lot less TV, and have been listening to music at home, letting lose and singing. I'm going to try and read more as well; the goal being one book a month, though January is almost over and we haven't even come close. I have at least 10 books on my shelf that I have bought with good intention to read, and have pushed them off over and over again to veg in front of the TV, or just go to bed early.

So there you have it, 2010 is the year of me, and trying to get back a small piece of the person I was prior to 2004. I'll let you know how it goes.

9 comments:

Misty said...

I think these are great resolutions. My resolution was to spend more time, effort, and funds on OUR family. Not so much everyone else's. Sometimes generosity and wanting to help is a flaw, you know? It is one I need to work on.

Jess said...

This is a great resolution. Focusing on yourself is SO important, especially when you have three kids and it's really easy to keep your focus elsewhere all the time. Good luck!

Tess said...

This is one of my favorite resolution posts so far! Love it.

Mommy Daisy said...

I love it. I'm doing similar things this year. In fact, I went to the gym for the first time last night. It's a good start. Best of luck to you!

Sarah said...

Yes! Best resolution ever. I also agree 100% with your exercise philosophy- it's NOT about weight loss. It's about getting your heart and muscles healthy so you can have some damn fun. And, for me, strengthening my bad knee so I can actually move at a faster pace than strolling without fear of breaking my kneecap again.
A good mom is a happy mom. Making yourself happy is the nicest thing you can do for your family. Go you!

Nowheymama said...

I love this.

d e v a n said...
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d e v a n said...

Woo hoo! Great resolutions!

Anonymous said...

You deserve it my love, you really do. Putting yourself first is the best gift you can give yourself, and your family, as you'll hopefully become happier and healthier and all that. Let me know if you need a buddy, I am working on me too and so far so good. Of course, I have few demands on me, but I am here for you. Love you. Paprika